Oh where, oh where can my library card be....

I finished Dramarama by E. Lockhart tonight. As I debated whether or not I wanted to dash off to the library to find a book for lunch tomorrow - I started to look for my library card. Can I explain the panic that consumed the next FIVE minutes as I racked my brain trying to figure out where I left it last.

See, usually I leave it in my car - in the little tray - so that I always know where it is - and have quick access to it when I have my "10-min-till-the-library-closes" panic. Tonight it was not there. Nor was it in my wallet. Or my purse. I dumped everything out of my purse - which consisted of my checkbook, wallet with various gift cards waiting to be used, glasses case, and schedule for work. I pulled out my little wallet with my id and cards in it. It was no where to be found. I thought about my jeans pocket... but they were in the wash, and I had checked the pockets. usually when I forget or neglect to do this, I end up with gum stuck to my clothes. I have become quite diligent recently in the pocket checking.

My panic increased as I realized I had no earthy clue where it could be. I turned and glanced at my night stand, my little cloth drawer unit - nope nope not there. As I did one last glancing sweep over my room - I spotted a pile of business cards sitting on my alarm clock/ipod station. I quickly hopped over -- and there at the very bottom of the pile was my precious library card. JOY!!!!!!!

So now I have the following books on reserve.... okay I went a little over board. oh well...

The hunger games / Suzanne Collins. -- well this one was on reserve from before - and it says it is "in-transit" -- which means I get to read it soooon!!
Magyk / Angie Sage
Flyte / Angie Sage
Physik / Angie Sage
Queste / Angie Sage
The thief / by Megan Whalen Turner.
That summer / Sarah Dessen.
Sun and moon, ice and snow / Jessica Day George.
The smile / Donna Jo Napoli.

When am I going to have time to read all these books? heck - I've already read Graceling, The Disresputable History, Jellicoe Road, Ender in Exile, All three of the Fable Haven books, Stealing Heaven, Savvy, and a few others I can not think of right now. Never mind my lesson for Gospel Doctrine. :)

**Note: I linked some of the books to Janssen's fantastic reviews - because frankly - I get many book suggestions from her recommendations. I love to see what her take was on a book - and her reviews never let me down. Plus her blog is just a good 'everyday read'.

The Key

"Relationships are the single most important thing.

People are the single most important thing.

This is the key.

This is why the death of a relationship of any type can be so painful."

~Kim's Blog~

I have been trying to reason with myself on a few events that have transpired lately.

First: I have been shafted - by the same guy - for the third time - in less than a year. I found myself pondering how this could possibly happen again. What did I do to let it come to pass again. I learned and realized last night - that I did not do anything but like him. In my heart of hearts - I was holding out for someone I knew would let me down. Not only that - but I thought it might be different this time. To my surprise - and dismay - it was not. That was my mistake. How to I fix it? I do not. and that is a hard bite to swallow.

The interesting part is I am not angry. I am sad, frustrated, and hurt. More disappointed than anything else - and I have lost some of my trust in this person. But honestly it does not matter that much. It does not make me angry or want to retaliate - it just makes me smile a sad smile and move on.

It is amazing how when one door seems to be closing - a window is being opened. I can say that I have been as honest and up front with guys as I would like them to be with me. I am learning to live the standard I would like to be held up to. As a result I have seemed to find or notice more of the type of people I would like to be around. I have made a few new friends who are fantastic - they fit nicely into a place in my life I did not know I had vacant. And they help me smile.

I also had the opportunity to see some old friends this weekend. I was very anxious to see them again because of a crazy past. I was not sure what to think - we had been such good friends and it was just left to wither. But it was so nice to see them - and I realized how important these people are in shaping me to be who I am today. It was fun to catch up - to see their families - and hear their stories. I am grateful for such opportunities. They remind me of what is truly important in life.

So despite the fact that something painful occurred - there were a few more things that softened it and made the weekend worthwhile.

*Note: Wish I had some pictures. I forgot my camera... and I know the various photographers took pictures of me (I went to two wedding receptions) but I only have one of me and the cutest little red head I have met to date. It is on facebook if you would like to see it. :)

A little change...

This is a little post to let you come check out the fantastic layout Stacy made for me!!!

She is incredible! ;)

THANK YOU!!!

(I'm still working on the various text colors...

soo let me know what you can and can not see the best....

ha I love colors to much!)

Rules Girl

I am a Rules girl.

I find that at different times in life I am in need of different things. (what?! crazy huh!) Right now - I think I need to just stick to the rules.

What are the rules?

I found the perfect blog that explains this quite nicely. CLICK HERE to read about what it means to be a Rules Girl.

Today's Entry is about marriage - and I love it. So many times it seems that 'us - single girls' are so focused on marriage that we forget about the dating part. now remember this is my opinion...but I have had quite a few discussions I believe that a date is a date. It does not imply future commitment, or eternal marriage - it just means I get to spend a couple of hours getting to know you. If it goes well - you are second date worthy. If not - I'll think about it! :) but it does not imply we are getting married. Now of course every boy guy has potential - but realize I am only planning on marrying one!

So I am going to follow that rule the most --- step-by-step -- can I go on a date? would I go on another? am I feeling anxious? easy - step-by-step process.


So I will let you know how it goes.... so far - so good. ;p