Eat, Pray, Love

Recently my life has taken a few turns that I was not exactly planning on. I went to see Eat, Pray, Love with two of my really good friends right before the domino effect started in my life. This is now one of my favorite movies. It is really good, it made me laugh, cry, sigh, smile, and reminded me that sometimes when a door closes, there is usually a window open to new possibilities.

I had two favorite parts in the movie, the first of which I have been dwelling on. There is a part where Liz's (Julia Roberts) friend Robert (I believe that is his name) gives her the following advice:

"If you miss them - miss them. You love them, so Love them.

Then send them love and light. and then drop it." (it might be messed up a little... but you get the gist.)

At the time I thought that was profound, but when would I need that? Well, of course I did. Last week I decided that instead of trying to harbor all the feelings for myself that I was feeling, it was time to try a little of his advice.

My mom also had some fabulous advice. She told me to "let my friends and family serve me. To go out, and do things, and let them help me heal."

It is amazing how I feel like putting that advice combined with sending light and love has helped. I still have a way to go, but it made a huge impact to recognize that those feelings are still there, but there are other things in my life that are more important. Since I put it into action, I have literally watched as a new path opened up with options and opportunities that I would have never anticipated before.

I am grateful for good movies, good advice, incredible friends, and family, and friends who will always be more like family than friends.

(and if you want to see that movie... I would go again!)

Onions

Have you ever forgotten to ask for No onions on your sandwich or burger?

Well - as you can probably guess - I forgot to ask for No onions today - so I removed them with my little fingers. and now - 3 1/2 hours later anytime I start to ponder and bring my fingers close to my face, I can smell the onion. It is amazing what a potent and lingering smell those little things have.

I washed my hands in attempt to rid my fingers of the smell... and no! it is still there.

I put on the hand sanitizer --- no! still there!

I put on my fabulously smelling lotion -- no! still there!

I am not sure what to do now.

wish

'Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?
Because I could really use a wish right now.'

Addiction

I remember recently when I would look at my phone and get all giddy because I had a message. Sometimes I wish that I was not so used to getting messages, that I did not look at my phone out of habit.

Amazing how addicted or reliant we become on a piece of electronic equipment.

Do you have that problem?

Decisions

I was reading Karalee's Post about indecision -- and realized I think I have the same issue. Perhaps it is a universal issue? I find however that I feel the most apprehensive when it comes to the big choices.

I was not always like this. I could make decisions and run with them, accepting responsibility for whatever consequence may come my way. Perhaps age makes you more cautious? Perhaps the consequences from your previous choices? I am not sure.


Recently I have been trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. I have been living the good life at my parents, and my dad got a job at BYU-Idaho (whoot whoot whoot). Now I have a decision to make in front of me, and seems like nothing helped, and I could not decided what I would do. I thought I HAD to make a decision - and DO something. After much frustration and stressing I realized that the time was not right for me to be making a decision. I think I was so anxious to have my future planned, when there was no real decision to be made yet. Just potential options, and more patience to be developed.

Well the time came - and I started to recall my previous sweat and anxiety. I had wade the pros's and con's, looked at my finances, and stressed over it enough. Yes, I am still wondering if I made the right choice. But I feel confidence in remembering that once the pros's and con's list is made, and you've wade all your options, and the time is right you have to make a decision. You can not sit on it for too long and watch your options fall away. I did my due-diligence, I had said my prayers and now I am just to look forward to the future.

So future, bring what you might --- I am on for this ride! New job! Here I come! :)