March 18, 2009

Oh where, oh where can my library card be....

I finished Dramarama by E. Lockhart tonight. As I debated whether or not I wanted to dash off to the library to find a book for lunch tomorrow - I started to look for my library card. Can I explain the panic that consumed the next FIVE minutes as I racked my brain trying to figure out where I left it last.

See, usually I leave it in my car - in the little tray - so that I always know where it is - and have quick access to it when I have my "10-min-till-the-library-closes" panic. Tonight it was not there. Nor was it in my wallet. Or my purse. I dumped everything out of my purse - which consisted of my checkbook, wallet with various gift cards waiting to be used, glasses case, and schedule for work. I pulled out my little wallet with my id and cards in it. It was no where to be found. I thought about my jeans pocket... but they were in the wash, and I had checked the pockets. usually when I forget or neglect to do this, I end up with gum stuck to my clothes. I have become quite diligent recently in the pocket checking.

My panic increased as I realized I had no earthy clue where it could be. I turned and glanced at my night stand, my little cloth drawer unit - nope nope not there. As I did one last glancing sweep over my room - I spotted a pile of business cards sitting on my alarm clock/ipod station. I quickly hopped over -- and there at the very bottom of the pile was my precious library card. JOY!!!!!!!

So now I have the following books on reserve.... okay I went a little over board. oh well...

The hunger games / Suzanne Collins. -- well this one was on reserve from before - and it says it is "in-transit" -- which means I get to read it soooon!!
Magyk / Angie Sage
Flyte / Angie Sage
Physik / Angie Sage

Queste / Angie Sage
The thief / by Megan Whalen Turner.
That summer / Sarah Dessen.
Sun and moon, ice and snow / Jessica Day George.
The smile / Donna Jo Napoli.

When am I going to have time to read all these books? heck - I've already read Graceling, The Disresputable History, Jellicoe Road, Ender in Exile, All three of the Fable Haven books, Stealing Heaven, Savvy, and a few others I can not think of right now. Never mind my lesson for Gospel Doctrine. :)

**Note: I linked some of the books to Janssen's fantastic reviews - because frankly - I get many book suggestions from her recommendations. I love to see what her take was on a book - and her reviews never let me down. Plus her blog is just a good 'everyday read'.

March 17, 2009

The Key

"Relationships are the single most important thing.
People are the single most important thing.
This is the key.
This is why the death of a relationship of any type can be so painful."
I have been trying to reason with myself on a few events that have transpired lately.
First: I have been shafted - by the same guy - for the third time - in less than a year. I found myself pondering how this could possibly happen again. What did I do to let it come to pass again. I learned and realized last night - that I did not do anything but like him. In my heart of hearts - I was holding out for someone I knew would let me down. Not only that - but I thought it might be different this time. To my surprise - and dismay - it was not. That was my mistake. How to I fix it? I do not. and that is a hard bite to swallow.
The interesting part is I am not angry. I am sad, frustrated, and hurt. More disappointed than anything else - and I have lost some of my trust in this person. But honestly it does not matter that much. It does not make me angry or want to retaliate - it just makes me smile a sad smile and move on.
It is amazing how when one door seems to be closing - a window is being opened. I can say that I have been as honest and up front with guys as I would like them to be with me. I am learning to live the standard I would like to be held up to. As a result I have seemed to find or notice more of the type of people I would like to be around. I have made a few new friends who are fantastic - they fit nicely into a place in my life I did not know I had vacant. And they help me smile.
I also had the opportunity to see some old friends this weekend. I was very anxious to see them again because of a crazy past. I was not sure what to think - we had been such good friends and it was just left to wither. But it was so nice to see them - and I realized how important these people are in shaping me to be who I am today. It was fun to catch up - to see their families - and hear their stories. I am grateful for such opportunities. They remind me of what is truly important in life.
So despite the fact that something painful occurred - there were a few more things that softened it and made the weekend worthwhile.
*Note: Wish I had some pictures. I forgot my camera... and I know the various photographers took pictures of me (I went to two wedding receptions) but I only have one of me and the cutest little red head I have met to date. It is on facebook if you would like to see it. :)

March 12, 2009

A little change...

This is a little post to let you come check out the fantastic layout Stacy made for me!!!
She is incredible! ;)
(I'm still working on the various text colors...
soo let me know what you can and can not see the best....
ha I love colors to much!)

Rules Girl

I am a Rules girl.

I find that at different times in life I am in need of different things. (what?! crazy huh!) Right now - I think I need to just stick to the rules.

What are the rules?

I found the perfect blog that explains this quite nicely. CLICK HERE to read about what it means to be a Rules Girl.

Today's Entry is about marriage - and I love it. So many times it seems that 'us - single girls' are so focused on marriage that we forget about the dating part. now remember this is my opinion...but I have had quite a few discussions I believe that a date is a date. It does not imply future commitment, or eternal marriage - it just means I get to spend a couple of hours getting to know you. If it goes well - you are second date worthy. If not - I'll think about it! :) but it does not imply we are getting married. Now of course every boy guy has potential - but realize I am only planning on marrying one!

So I am going to follow that rule the most --- step-by-step -- can I go on a date? would I go on another? am I feeling anxious? easy - step-by-step process.

So I will let you know how it goes.... so far - so good. ;p