Let's get out of here --- feel the wind against our face!

I though about calling you when I got off the plane
Every time I see this city through the clouds I get that way
Call me crazy for missing you like this but I do
~"Then I Did" Rascal Flatts~

Provo-SLC was fabulous - exactly what I needed to rejuvenate my soul and direction. Thanks to all who contributed to my dress plight --- and I wore both the pinkish one -- and the polka dotted one. It was magical!! I went to one of my best friends wedding reception - and she was beautiful and fun as always! (pink dress) and then changed into the Polka dotted dress - and off Rob and I went to his formal dinner. It was perfect. He was inducted - called - however you want to put it - as an officer for his frat - and then we danced and danced and danced! Loved every second! The night was seemingly perfect...

I stayed with my sister Kim - and that was so fun! Her ward was fun - helping her with projects and papers - Late night talks - or afternoon chats -- Shopping - IHOP trips - just so fun! Kim and I always seem to have just the best of times when we are together. Hard to imagine it was so hard to get along when we were little. :) Guess perhaps I have grown-up a little in some ways... She is fabulous - and one of my very best friends! I am so grateful for sister's who can help put pieces back every time you see them! :D

Rob and I made dinner Monday evening -- while Kim worked -- and I realized how good of a friend he is to me --- something I almost don't deserve. It was fun to just hang out with him and be me -- and have that be enough.

I bought a few fabulous book at the BYU Bookstore --- the 2nd Leven Thumps book (super good thus far!!) and Spiritual Roots of Human Behavior by Covey --- both of which I am excited to sit down and read. I love having time to read books again -- Love it!

Tues. was nice -- besides the SNOW --- (not a fan... not a fan) -- I visited my Aunt Pat, saw Anne and Maps, and had dinner with Aunt Kathy & Joe & Andrew & Jenni & her fiance (&Rob)! It was fabulous! We played games - and had a grand old time! I love my family!!!

AND my car -- we can not forget the amazing little Red Kandy Tater --- she is fabulous!! she didn't die - I didn't die - and we were wind blown - tossed to and fro in the wind - and yet --- we just kept on singing and driving! I love my car!!! :D

Please Help!! :D

*disclaimer: this post is mostly for those who asked to see the outfits! :D

Please indulge me for a moment ---- I'm going to a formal-dinner-thing on Saturday up at the Uof U - and I've been having trouble picking an outfit. Which do you like??

My horoscope for the day -- Very interesting & fitting :D

"Don't shy away from making an impression on people -- it's never bad to speak out."

:D JOY!! permission to speak my mind! what more could I ask for?

UPDATE

update:
my wedding/engagement count for this year/summer:
2 roomies (maps & Lauren)
1 cousin (Jen)
10 friends engaged or will be (told on good authority..being themselves!) - (Jared, Tracy, Sheldon, Alecia-will be engaged, Nate, Christian, girl from my dance team, sarah, natalie, Laurie,)
1 - guy named Jeff whose reception I am going to with my friend ;)
1 friend already married - Heather

little red sports car

Last week I went to my mom's Enrichment -- and it was good times!! I esp loved talking to the 'old ladies' (hee hee) - who all know my mom and so wanted to know all about my new found life at home. Of course I had to indluge them with all the details of my life --- which def. didn't take very long! not to mention showing everyone my "baby pictures" (as one kindly put it) on my phone!

I am so excited about my new "baby" --- she -- b/c of course it is a girl - brings me a sense of freedom that cannot be replaced. In fact I have only had this sensation one other time in my life about two and half years ago (and while I was def. petrified as much as I was excited then also...). I esp love her red color. Now I am not usual a red - kind of person -- but from the moment I saw her - I just knew! it was love! :D I am super excited to go to Utah with her next weekend. Hopefully it is smooth sailing - and there won't be any hiccups - but I guess we will see! and I will try to take a few pictures so I can post them up here!! :D

sung to the happy congo line tune

I found swing DANCING
Iiiinn Las VeGAS!
I found swing DAN-CING
Iiin Las VeGas!!

My friend clued me in on these lessons that were happening at another single's ward building -- soo I decided to drive out tonight and see what I could find. Low - and behold - there was dancing - and learning of the dance -- and it was amazing! so exciting - I could hardly stand it. (and I think it showed...) I am just slightly excited......... okay -- I lied I am so excited that I can't even begin to tell you. This is the highlight of my week.

In other news:
I decided after many LAME events happening in my life -- that I am just going to stop trying... because it is easier. Maybe if I don't try to predict everything - I can't be disappointed when I'm right - or wrong. More so being right when my prediction is not the optimal outcome desired.

and now I'm going to go ---- to sleep -- and make sure my dog is not sick -- (she's kinda sulking, I think she misses everyone else who is California w/o me at the beach.....)-- but maybe not in that order...

I miss you...and love blue skies

I miss my roommates intensely. I miss random visits at 11pm. I miss dancing every Wed, Friday and any other time I want. I miss being so overwhelmingly busy that I thought my head would fall off. I miss the one-of-a-kind atmosphere. I miss being hit on by "normal" guys at work - my age. (by my age I mean -- not 40+ and super old - and married and weird and creepy...) I miss spontaneous dance parties - and just activities in general. I miss it being normal to plan at the last minute. I miss couch dancing. I miss being sure. I miss emotional roller coasting - with a purpose. I miss holding hands with two at once. I miss clean-flicks. I miss cliff-jumping, four-wheeling. I miss moseying. I miss walking to work. I actually miss snow (only for a second). I miss late night discussions on why life happens the way it does. I miss roommates who just play with your hair - just because - and somehow make everything better. I miss the intensity of barnyard. I miss knowing what comes next. I miss sleepovers. I miss pretending to cheat at barnyard - and taking everyone's cards. I miss country dancing - and swing dancing. I miss my life.

I love feeling the sunshine on my arms through the window. I love laughing. I love happy music. I love dancing in my living room. I love singing at the top of my lungs in the car. I love spring. I love late night talks. I love listening to customers. I love singing with my brush in the mirror. I love Sunday afternoon walks. I love the beeping sound that means I have a message. I love looking at Vegas from the peace of the Temple. I love hiking. I love sitting on the couch as the sun shines in reading a fantastic book. I love playing the piano and releasing. I love watching the Fountains - esp. when it is a song that I know - so I can sing and dance along. I love driving. I love playing games. I love sunflowers and daisies. I love the feeling of accomplishing something hard. I love putting together activities with people I love. I love cooking for others. I love eating ice cream & milk. I love reading a good book that you can just become a part of. I love going to dance performances, musical performances, theatrical events and coming away feeling like I could do it to. I love the turning of the leaves. I love warm rain. I love dancing in the rain. I love road trips. I love writing. I love learning new things. I love purchasing that pair of pants I forgot I had on. I love new socks. I love getting long letters - or short notes. I love giving them also. I love being around people I love. I love picnics. I love listening to pre-made play lists. I love asking questions. I love listening and comprehending. I love the feeling of church. I love feeling motivated and needed. I love my eyes. I love attending sporting events where I know someone playing. I love planning ahead. I love after the rain when the sun shines creating a rainbow. I love just siting and reading in the Gardens while the water and birds create noise to remind me of what is important. I love figuring out how to balance my life. I love mastering a new dance move. I love finding a new song and listening to it over and over again. I love being confident in my skin. I love sharing good things with others. I love a good game of Settlers - barnyard - or any other game. I love cuddling up and watching a good chick flick. I love finding out that there is an automatic save function. I love rising from the ashes. I love watching the sunrise or the sunset and seeing the array of colors spread across the horizon. I love being me - and having that be enough.

Poll

While listening to the radio one morning - they were talking about the most attractive feature to males. And the most attractive feature is their eyes - or so they claim. I find this interesting because I never really noticed or thought about it.

Since then, as I have been going about my day, I have taken note of the times people are complimented - or I am complimented. The majority of the compliments that are received have to do with the females eyes --- interesting!!

So then I began to think - why?? What is it about eyes that are so attractive? Is it the "window to the soul" theory? Or rather the addition of dark make-up to make them stand-out and sparkle? What makes one girl's eyes more attractive than anther's?

Anyone have any thoughts on the matter?? I would love to hear other's opinions...

almost tragic

Have you ever left your phone at home??


I did it today --- and I felt almost naked with out it.

Kinda silly how dependent we are on our electronic devices! Sometimes I can't remember what life was like before the cell phone, laptop computer, ipods, and other such device in my life. What life was like with out the nagging feeling that I had to answer every phone call or text message that flew my way. I wonder if I could ever learn to live without it? interesting thought...

I had another interesting thought as I was looking on my facebook - I realized how long ago last fall (and summer) seems to be - and yet how real, tangent, and close it still is in my emotions and feelings. How hard I work to move past it - and yet how quickly it can be conjured up, quickly rising right to the surface. I know it will never all go away - and it will forever haunt my dreams - but there are some days - I just feel like me again. I suppose though, until that happens frequently - I am just going to keep reading my books. ;)

"How does it work?"

*note: anything said here is subject to change at any moment. the views expressed here are not necessarily the views of the writer tomorrow.... probably should not even write them*


SO I deleted it -- I won't publish such thoughts on the Internet.....because it wouldn't be nice - or kind - but I am very disappointed --- I guess that is all that needs to be said.

I wonder why things happen. Where different events fit into life.

Event: An Older lady snatched her ID from me. (I was not doing anything wrong - she just thought it was a security issue to write down her Id info --- which is it actually a security issue if I don't.)
Reminder: I am going to work to not be an old Cranky women when I grow older. By realizing now people (meaning banks and/or bankers or other such service industry people) are not out to get you -- I think I can go far in life!!! I mean my life is hopefully going to be much much more pleasant than that poor lady!

Event: Dating -- in general
Realization: I am finding more and more the 'type' of person I would like to marry --- or maybe more so the 'type' of person I DON'T want to....

Event: Walking to - Watching - and Walking back from Nascar qualifying races.
Realization 1: While walking there I learned alot about attitude - and how it determines the experience.
Realization 2: While the cars race around and around and around the track, I realized how this can be us in life. We are racing against the invisible time line. Trying to fit in every possible activity or experience that we can. We are just racing around in circles on a path we think we should be taking - and just when we think we get to the top of the pack, we get just a little too close to the edge and *WHAM* *BAM* *WHOOSH* it is all over --- just like that- in a matter of seconds. You have wrecked your car and are stopped dead in your tracks. as other cars race past you --- you wonder what went wrong.

Event: Listening to "love song" (by Sara Bareilles) (lyrics found here)

Posted below are a few lines that stuck out to me the most:

"Head under water,

And they tell me to breathe easy for a while.

The breathing gets harder, even I know that."

"I'm gonna need a better reason to write you a love song today"
"I learned the hard way,
That they all say things you want to hear.
My heavy heart sinks deep down under you,
And your twisted words, your help just hurts.
You are not what I thought you were.
Hello to high and dry."
"I'm trying to let you hear me as I am"
"Babe, I’ll walk the seven seas when I believe that there's a reason to,
Write you a love song
Today"

Realization: Why would you want to give someone a 'love song' if their heart wasn't in it?? And I guess I have been this girl - as many people can relate with at some point or another. This song is just another reminder to me of what I really want - and how I won't give up "me" to do it.

Event: Teaching my Sunday School Lesson and all the amazing comments and insights.
Realization: The answers to life's hardest question - to finding your way through the darkness -- to dissolving the illusions - are right in front of you! All it takes is a 10 minutes a day - and He will provide the answers. I don't know why - but this is so important to me this week. He gives us everything - and then some -- but Satan just takes it with no reward all our work for naught....

Event: Reading Screwtape Letters by C.S. Lewis
Realization: This book took me an absurdly long amount of time to read - but it was worth the read. I realized how important it is to keep focus - and how many tricks, devices, and ways they try to fool you with. They are miserable - so why shouldn't we be? they will take virtues and counter-fit them - twisting them to work towards their advantage. And all the while doing this 'the Enemy" (aka God in the book.. since it is from a 'temptor's point of view') is still there fighting just as hard for the salvation of man. But he has the true ways --- not the counter-fit feelings and ideas. While it was not my favorite book to read - it was interesting and I would recommend it to anyone who is interested or thinking about reading it. It is worth your time.

*gasp*

oh my ---
I was trying out new layouts last night - and I just noticed that my other bloggers spot --- IS GONE!!!

this is a Tragic moment -- I'll have to fix it later --- maybe add some more on there.... shoot dang!!!

In other news -- I am still alive - kicking - and trying to be a chipper as possible. This week was interesting.

And now I'm sleepy - so you will just have to wait for more information! ask questions - and I will answer! ;)

Group Vs Date

"Have no fear for givin' in

Have no fear for giving over.
You better know that in the end
It's better to say too much,
than never to say what you need to say again.

"Even if your hands are shaking,
And your faith is broken.

Even as the eyes are closin',

Do it with a heart wide open.

"Say what you need to say"

~Say what you need to say - John Mayer

I am the type of person who enjoys group activities. I love being social, hanging out with my friends. If I do not have anything to do - I will throw together an activity, invite my friends and have a smashing good time. I am not afraid to do so! My reasoning -- why should we all just sit at home being bored - when we could all gather together and have a smashing good time doing any random activity that my imagination (or other's) can think of!

Well this weekend - I went on a date. A real - live - breathing "planned ahead (meaning he called me...) - Paired off - Paid for" -- date. and I had an amazingly fabulous time! Yes - I was quite surprised by this fact - only because in previous first dates (of which I have some experience in...) I have had to pull the conversation along - and the date just drug outtt for-ev-er - because they seemed to have no personality. Purhaps I made them nervous - or they couldn't relate - or something - but the fact of the matter is there was a time where I just didn't enjoy them. So I rationalized doing 'group activities' more often. Then I could be with the people I liked -- but with no threat - no dragging - just people being themselves in a 'non-threatening situation'.

Well this one was quite to the contrary - reminding me why I enjoy dates.

For as much as I love hanging out (and I loooove it!) - I like pairing off just as much. There is only so much you can get to know about a person in a group. But one-on-one dates are much more conducive for getting to know a person - who they really are - their hopes, dreams, cares, dislikes - and such. You can see how you interact with each other - really tell if you are compatible or not. You can see if you can hold a conversation without the interaction and distraction of a million other people. You learn about their family- how they truly feel about subjects - if they are kind to others - if they open the door - how they react to the crazy waiter - to the cold food - to the sold-out movie - to the jerk who cut them off - and if they are even into a 'relationship' at all. You can break through the layers, walls, and find out who they really truly are.

Yes - this is what I learned this week.

Fake engagements and other fun weekend activities

In honor of the many weddings and engagements that seem to be occurring around the February holiday season - I thought I would post a story of my own. Hopefully it is as fun as my fellow bloggers and friends!

This weekend my friends (B & L) came down from school. They have been dating for about 4 months now - and in BYU-Idaho time -- practically forever! Recently they have had the oh-so-popular-assumed-question "when are you getting engaged" asked by quite a few different friends. This has increased in the recent weeks since they have crossed quite a few milestones in BYU-Idaho culture (3-month anniversary - semester break- and Valentine's Day). Recently they had purchased the infamous "Wal-mart Ring" (aka - cheap- almost real looking - engagement ring - used by un-engaged/married women to deflect creepy-stalker type men who like to hit on you at work or those who like to play pranks on others). They planned on taking many pictures while in Vegas and then send them to our various friends at school - and theirfriends from home - to feed the rumors! (plus it is just kinda fun - and funny!)

During various times this past weekend - we have taken some such engagement pictures. One such time was at the Las Vegas Temple. It was the happening spot this Sunday evening - with the various tourists and BYU students down for the weekend. Well we got there right before the rush - and so had plenty of time to take the 'fake pictures' - without any on-lookers gawking at the 'exciting moment' - or so we thought...

We had walked around the perimeter of the hlaf of the temple that was accessable spotting various 'prime proposing spots' and were taking a few final picture. Since I have taken one photography class in my life - I decided that I could get the best shot by stepping into the street and kneeling down - of course risking my life by stepping into the potential oncomming traffic (there really wasn't any traffic on bonanza at the time of the evening--- thank goodness!). As B- got down on his knees and pretended to ask the question - and I kneeled and started to focus and fram the picture - an unknown on-looker bursts in and exclaims "IS THIS REALLY HAPPENING?? Are you for real! Oh my gosh!!!! He's proposing!!!!!!!"

Now if this had been the actual event -- she would have ruined - butchering the moment. All romantic qualities would have been lost - and the moment destroyed forever. (although - it would have made a good story - eventually - perhaps even a second proposal) As we burst into a fit of laughter - (because none of us are good at pretending!) she realized how awkward that moment could have been - and that she truly could have ruined the 'hopefully' once in a lifetime experience! She seemed quite embarrassed -- but was able to laugh about it. As we passed her and her friend other various times during our next 30 min. picture excursion we continued to laugh about the almost disaster. Although - with their help we did have many of the other on-lookers - who were on the other sidewalk - believing that they were indeed engaged.

While a fake engagement may seem cruel and weird -- it was alot of fun and made me realize a few things.

1) I think I would like my engagement to be a private - he & I experience - hopefully no onlookers to ruin the moment.
2) I don't know that there is any 'optimal' spot for proposing... just make sure to have a camera around somewhere ---- because pictures are so much fun!
3) Be careful of on-lookers - they might ruin your moment!!! ;D

Thanks to B & L for coming this weekend and keeping me entertained!

Sorry to any roomies, friends and innocent onlookers whose feelings may have been hurt in the entertainment of the weekend.

Weddings Weddings Wedding

I just thought you might like an update on my wedding/engagement count for this year/summer:
2 roomies (maps & Lauren)
1 cousin (Jen)
6 friends engaged or will be (told on good authority..being themselves!) - (Jared, Tracy, Sheldon-will be engaged, Alecia-will be engaged, Stephanie, Nate)
1 friend already married - Heather
*and those are just the ones I can think of off the top of my head... trust me when I started writing this - there was only 3 friends..... ha ha! ;)
*ps... this only takes into account friends married in 2008

So last summer I had 10 good friends get married -- lets go for 11 this year!!

Either I know alot of people -- or it's just that time in my life.... both of which are true statements - I think.

plus I went to BYU-Idaho people! ;D

Smiling ----

Speaking-as-a-third-party-person-with-absolutely-no-outside-interest-in-the-matter

I like Valentine's Day ---- I've never actually been dating someone on it --- in fact I went on my first V-day date only a year ago (interesting story for another time...). But I still like the day overall.

And that is my thought as a third-party-person-with-absoutely-no-outside-interest-in-the-matter....


*Malcolm - have you ever tried to run away in heels?? not that easy --- not that easy*

*cough cough sniff*

I despise being sick. Loathe it --- even if it is just the infamous 'common cold' - coughing, sneezing, blowing my nose -- lost voice -- tired of it!

on the bright side - I got to sleep all morning - and my room is now clean.

And now I'm tired again.......

To be circling or not to be - that is the question

So those of you who follow my recent blogging extravaganza - perhaps have noted my mention of relationship circles. I thought I would take a moment to explain this is a short paragraph.

Since I was 15 I have had this notion in my head that if I can not date them -- I would rather be their friends. 7 years later - still have this notion in varying forms. I am beginning to think that perhaps this is where many of my 'difficulties' come from. In plain words - I make an amazing friend - b/c it is simply easier.
A) You never have to wonder where you stand -
B) You are updated constantly on their life - b/c they can actually communicate with you - they ask your advice, tell you their woes, trust you - b/c you are a friend. and 'true' friends are 'always there' - never need to worry about them hurting you - how could they!?
C) Easy emotional attachment - no strings attached.
And this has been me - in many senses of the word - the "best friend" (well - until they decide to become engaged to someone else - and then I just kinda chop them off at the knees... harsh - but the sad truth - they picked a new best friend. and I won't compete - or be in the middle - nor should I ever!). And for the most part - I am content to play my role. ~note: for the most part

There are about 5 guys in my life that I have 'cut off' and it is usually because they have become engaged - and as afore mentioned - decided to fill my role with a permanent - live-in - best friend. And this is okay -- and the other times they have been cut off --- is because I am tired of circles.........

I would like to report that for the time being- I think the circles have all be broken. We will see if this is truly the case -- or perhaps you can decide for yourself. These are the steps I have taken ---
Moved away. I find this is the best tactic when trying to break a circle. ;) It allows you to sever all ties - and if they don't come to find you --- then they weren't that interested - and you can finally figure out how to heal. But I believe it is one of the easiest. I almost feel like it is 'running away' --- but in the same breath realize how hard it is also.
Another tactic I have used is deleting them from my speed dial --- now to get on speed dial is quite the privilege - and I have a very hard time removing anyone from speed dial privileges - but it must be done. So I did it....
Take a Vow to not email or text first --- this I did successfully for a few weeks -- but when you have a moment of weakness -- you just try try again!
These are quite effective tactics if you have self-control.

The problem I run into is I now have a void --- a deficiency in the 'boy best friend' area. and this is not a vacancy I enjoy. Usually I rush around trying to find a replacement as quickly as I can. It is interesting to me that this time --- I do not know if I want to fill it quite yet...

In other news --- I think I am getting closer to figuring out what I am really looking for

Purses & Photos!

I have been looking for a good scripture case (an "Amber"-type case) for so long. I spotted this silver purse (on right) at target a few weeks back when I bought myself a new wallet (also same print as silver - however it is red). I didn't purchase it at the time - b/c I wasn't sure if I really did want it or if it would fit all my stuff. Well since then it has crossed my mind - and so tonight I decided I would go back and see if it was still everything I hoped and dreamed for. I was still a little skeptical but I bought it anways!
Dianna and I also ventured to Wal-mart (while waiting to hear from some of her mission buds) and she and I spotted the patch work purse - and I decided that I would try both and see which one I liked better!! (that was an impulse buy.... and I was surprised.. b/c I don't love wal-mart...)



When I got home - I realized that the heart purse did not fit my scriptures, journal and RS Manual -- so I tried the patchwork purse and *ahhhhhhhh* it was purrrrfect -- except for the huge RS Manual did not fit. I decided that it was okay though - b/c I will have to carry my manual for sunday school anyways - so it was no big deal!

I am so excited! :D and both for under $20! Joy! ;)
Below are a few pictures from my recent trip to Rexburg! ;)

1st picture: Rexburg Temple

2nd picture: My roommie & I outside the front - picture curtesy of the parking usher who: a)was frozen & b)cut off moroni!

3rd picture: View from the parking lot. Look at all the snow!!! (also a view of rexburg in the background)

4th picture: Ashley running back to the car b/c it was 3degrees outside!! but what a beautiful scene the cold makes! ps. note all the snow... foot & half fell the day before!!

motivation, devo talks and such

"I'm tired of being alone...
so hurry up and get here!"

So I find it interesting that I have more desire to write on here --- than to write in my own personal journal (not a good sign). I am not sure why - but for some reason I don't want to write in my journal. perhaps it is because I know I have alot of catching up to do (ie... write about all the craziness of the past 4 months...) or because it isn't happy news what I have to write -- isn't what I wanted to be writing in my journal about --- or maybe I am just lazy. Whatever be the case - I am going to do it - no matter how long it might take me. (and now that I have written it...it is goal - not a wish or a thought.....) I was thinking about just getting a calendar and pasting it in my journal - writing the various things that happened on the specified date on that - but I suppose that would just be cheating.......

Speaking of cheating --- during my lunch break - the rest of the staff loves watching the court tv shows -- me I'd rather read -- but recently I've been sucked in... anyway This show just reaffirmed my belief that people have the craziest sense of entitlement and ideas on what is right. I swear some of the situations are legit for going to court for --- but others, honestly - I don't think it is even worth it!

oh yeah -- and while I am on the subject of entitlement --- if I have one more customer come in and throw their deposit slip at me - or gawf at me for asking for ID - I think I am going to scream! Come on -- it doesn't matter how long you have banked with a bank --- or how old you are --- or anything - we live in Las Vegas --- you need to show your id everywhere -- and if it really is that much of an annoyance... ahhh! *and also -- not everyone knows you! so why people are offended by the ID request - I have yet to understand!!!!!! ** So please - don't make the poor teller, cashier, or sales person cry! Be kind! Show your id! ;)
I was reading at lunch today Pres. Clark's opening Devo Talk. President Clark always gives good devotionals - and usually he tends to be pretty upfront about certain subjects --- however this one didn't really resemble reprimanding or harshness at all. He talks about the Great War in Heaven - and then Temples. I find it interesting how drawn to the Temple everything I do seems to be recently. Devotional talks, Talks on Sunday seemed to be related to Temples - conversations with friends - and attending the temple open house! Reminds me once again - the little things are so important if I want to achieve my goals! ;)

rexburg, circles, triangles, snow, and so much more

I was thinking this weekend that it would be wonderful if my life could be like a musical - where we break into song whenever we can. I think that would be so much fun! So many times I would have a song lyric - and tune - pop in my head in response to what people were saying. It is amazing to realize A) how many songs I do know and B) that they are retained and can be recalled that fast. Plus I think I just like to sing - so why not do it all the time! ;)



I had the chance to go to Rexburg this past weekend (JOY for working at a bank and getting all federal holiday's off... seriously -- what more could you want?). I took off Friday and flew up there. I love that there is a direct flight to Idaho Falls From Las Vegas (Allegiant Air Lines.... nice!) it makes my trip only 2 hours instead of 11 or 5. but I very much dislike just sitting on a plane doing nothing --- and then being an hour late for no obvious apparent reason. That is how it was flying up there and back. Now it is winter - so I forgive them -- but really no wonder there was all that hype around Jet Blue leaving passengers on the plane last year! being stuck in a plane is awful, terrible, and tooo warm!

Rexburg itself was freezing cold (yes it snowed...all day Sunday -- ~ a foot and half at least! but it was so pretty and so fluffy!). The Rexburg Temple Open house was by far the highlight of my experience. It was so beautiful - intricate - and I can not wait to be sealed forever there - I was so amazed. It helped put back into perspective what is truly important in life and how each little piece helps make up a magnificent building - so do the little things to build your life!


Another good part about going was I felt like I am finally getting a little further removed from all the hurt and bitter feelings I have been trying to shake. I also was once again reaffirmed that everything will be okay -- and that is it okay to still care for someone - it is really only natural. and -- joy! I didn't want to chuck anyone out windows! def - a positive step in the right direction. (although I am extremely worried for her now -- I hope she is strong enough when/if it all ends......)

I also loved see my friends! My sisters - not by blood - the fabulous roommies that they are! I love midnight talks that last for hours - afternoon talks while trying to figure out how frozen dough works (ps... have you ever make rolls in muffin tins? This bag had it as one of the three options -- it was really bizarre to me...) I love random dates! (Library - 3rd floor - teacher games (ie. manipulative's...tiddly wink type counters, blocks, tangent type blocks (the mosaic type), instruments and so much more!). Dancing -- amazing --- have to find some place to dance down here -- going to go crazy!!!! Car rides - Card Games - word games (...new word...), laughing , dinner--- and colored lights!

I also saw August Rush --- now this is an amazing movie. I honestly was feeling teary through-out the entire thing. Not that it is emotional - I just felt like I could relate so many times. I think I will be buying it soon.


in other news --- I seem to just go in circles in my relationships - if anyone has any suggestions - feel free to let me know! ;)

Lastly - I realized that I have changed and grown a little more than I realized from this past summer. That is comforting to know that I am maybe coming closer to being able to commit some day --- joy!

ps - pictures coming some day - I just can't find my cord to my camera... *sad day*